Well I did PT (physical Training)  competition thee other night and my wrist is now in a cast from pure idiotic moves! I hurt it cut the cast off and now hurt it again and was told NOT to cut it off this time (I still might depending on how long I have to have it)! 

Sorry no posts for a while I was so busy this past week with training, competition, and my boyfriend I was to tired my the time I got home!
MY BF and I almost broke up, I was told by my mom who was told by my brother who said was told by one of my friends that my BF said that "Our relationship doesn't matter anymore he is just waiting to score and then dump me)!" So I was upset and we almost broke up but then he started crying "manly" tears and told me he never said those things and he wouldn't have dated me this long (2 consecutive yrs., 8 years with a break up once)!  if he was only in it for sex.  So I need help.  Would someone really make that up that he said that or is he playing me??  I want to figure it out because I don't want to keep dating someone who is only in a  relationship with me for sex (which we haven't!!)! 

Well I will talk to you all later and plz comment with help if you can!!  Love Always, Brandy  

First I have to say that anyone who is a youth pastor, leader, or helper, or even would consider this for your church, youth of a school, anything!!!  I just got back... of course by now your wondering or just thinking tell me already what you're talking about!!!  I am talking about this play that teens/college students go all over the place doing and it is a great expierence to witness.  It is called "Dead Serious...About Life (presented by Mishpachah).  It is a wonderful thing for teens or even parents who don't understand teen life to see.  It is about some teens life and includes issues like suicide, cutting, drugs, alcohol, rape, pregnancy, and premarital sex.   E-Mail:  mish@mish-inc.com web page: www.mish-inc.com and myspace:  www.myspace.com/deadseriousaboutlife . 

Okay now that I got all that out because it was so wonderful and I cried during some of it...I couldn't help it!!

Anyway last night and today went smoothly but I may go to bed earlier tonight because I got about 5-8 hours of sleep all weekend and so I am kinda sleepy now but I can't get to sleep that was such a "moving" play/skit (3 hrs. long) but worth it.  I just got home a few minutes ago from the play!!

Questions/statements that I definitly kept thinking during the play:
1. Why did I feel like that? (killing myself before)
2. I can't believe I cut before
3. Will I ever be over what my parents did to me?
4. If God loves us so much why does he throw so much our way?
5. What am I?  Who am I?  When will I find out?
6. WHY IS LIFE SO COMPLICATED??

Well thank you for reading my post and if you want ot know anything about Dead Serious About Life for Youth or think you don't need to worry about, Just try to think of someone who might need/help if you take them or even tell them!!

Love to All, Brandy!!

Okay today is Saturday!!
First I get up at 3am because I couldn't get back to sleep and then this is about how my schedule went minus a few details!!

3a.m. take a shower
3:45 got out, put on ROTC uniform
4:00 made bed, cleaned up house
5:00 got on computer checked email
8:00 went to ROTC
12:00 got home
12:15 changed into Cardinal Song uniform
12:30 arrived at school for competition
1:00pm performed for competition for REMC
3:00pm arrived home changed into civilian clothes
5:00pm left for dinner
6:00 arrived at LakeView
8:00 arrived home
8:15 helped mom shampoo carpets
8:30 got on here
8:32 started typing this
8:34 brother scared crap out of me being a jerk...

This is what is planned
9:30 go to guitar lessons
10:00 finish lessons go to store
11:00 arrive home
11:30 check tmail and email
12:00 take a shower
12:30 get out wash face with special scrub
1:00am go to bed
4:00 am get up for church!!
LOL AND THEN START ANOTHER DAY!!

Just filliing in a time gap finishing this!! 

Well today was a okay day thus far!! I will talk more tomorrow I need to go!! talk to you all later!!!

Love Always, Brandy

Apparently my school is stupid.  Well some of the student body so to speak.  First I walked in to school with high hopes after spring break to just I don't know stop being the "bad girl". 

Now before I say the rest of that comment "bad Girl" meaning the one the boys joke around with all the time but if they say something way mean about me they know I can hurt them really easily, but I am a teachers pet (brainiac), prep,the kid everyone thinks is to christian for their own good, jock, I hang out with goths but I am not one (no offense I hate to wear complete black it makes me feel dead)!

Okay anyways I walked in and was fine and then I get called a Bit*h and I was upset but I just tried to let it blow over, at first I thought it did.

Then I went in to my next class and they called me a w*ore and so yet again I got mad and they could tell I was mad but I didn't say anything.  Well then they said that it was okay to be mad because they knew over spring break I had done a dog.  And that was pretty much the last straw and I told them to just leave me alone I didn't want to be part of their pervertedness so then they apologized and stopped. 

I feel like I should be in bed and sleep for 20 billion hours... I wish I could just be a kid lol!  Maybe chores are normal lol but my life includes way to many!!  So how is everyone doing out there in/on tblog?? 

I am actually good I found out my energy drink, may make some throw up or something but it is chocolate syrup, peanut butter, and vanilla icecream mixed and I have been up since 10 a.m. yesterday!! It is 9:30 here!! lol So I think I am getting good at this lol (in a bad sense)...
I have a new personal list I have to do myself before july which is: 1. cut the sugar out 
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; 2. Try to not stress because of acne breakouts (like that one will ever happen)!!
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; 3. Get dress out and make sure it still fits okay
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; 4. clean closet
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; 5. find black dress
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; 6. raise 475 dollars!!! YIKES!!

In case you are wondering abotu this crazy list it is because I am running for Miss Jr Teen of Indiana and it is July 4-6!! So I will give you updates on that if ya want!! At the moment I have raised about 280 dollars so I only need 475!! This pays for my sponsership fees and entry fee.  This doesn't pay for the hotel (which will be 600 dollars (estimated)) it also wont pay for gas lol which will be a great cost I believe!!  Okay well I will be back later!! Leave me one!!
Love Always, Brandi